I used to come on the internet to escape my life. I had internet friends I could chat to and I could just do whatever I want and not worry. Nowadays being on the internet is just making me feel awful I don't really have anyone to talk to anymore. I do talk to a couple of people but we don't have much of a conversation. They don't see that interested in me anymore.. I don't believe it when they say they care. I miss talking to people properly. I used to have a couple of people I could just talk about nearly everything with. They'd let me vent to them and then give me advice. I don't have anyone now. Everything is just bubbling up in side me and it's killing me. Somedays I just want a chat and there's never anyone.

I hate being on the internet sometimes now. It's the same on every website I go on.. I see other people having conversations with their friends and hear about how amazing their days have been and I'm just stuck at home on my own. I'd stop going on the laptop but it takes up such a great amount of my time that I wouldn't know what else to do. It's the only thing I'm always in the mood to do. Sometimes I just like to look at inspiration for my drawings or watch things on youtube or whatever as well. When I'm not on the laptop I do other things like drawing or reading but I can't always do them. I have to be in the mood.

I just don't want to be stuck like this anymore. I'm too fustrated.