Myzen,

In no way are you being selfish here, just looking out for yourself and there is nothing wrong with that.

I think that most people who fail to seek treatment, for whatever is bothering them, dont because they are embarressed, ashamed, scared or beleive that it isnt anything more then stress and/or they can handle it themselves. Lots a reasons I suppose.

I can identify with the last reason though, thinking I can handle everything myself. I used to think I had too because I appeared to everyone to be so "strong" that I couldnt show any emotion or ask for help. Before I knew it, it was too late. I had fallen into a deep depression that no one could help me out of. It wasnt until then that I got up the nerve to tell my closest friends and family that I wasnt as strong as they all thought I was and I couldnt do everything. I needed their help and support to see me through this. To my surprise, they were all very supportive and understanding. Even my best friend would research depression, anxiety and OCD and ask me questions and even offer information that she had learned.

I guess people are afraid of others and the reaction they may receive. For me, I had gotten to the point where I didnt care anymore. Keeping up appearances was the last thing on my mind.

Because you have been through depression and still struggle with anxiety perhaps you put off a vibe of understanding and compassion where people feel comfortable talking and confiding in you. I think this must add to your anxiety. I know it would for me.

Im rambling again. I always seem to ramble in your posts and I am not even sure I have answered your questions

Thinking of you Myzen. I am always here for you.


Huggles!!!!!

Jen