I went through the exact same thing about 10 years ago. I'm now married to another man and we have 2 wonderful children together.

My depression caused the love of my life to leave me. The depression and the mood swings were just too much for him to handle.

It took me a long time to learn to get on with my life but I did it. Don't get me wrong, I still miss what we had. I think about him when I hear a certain song on the radio or see a car on the road that was similar to his. Every time I see a surf board I think of him and in Western Australia there are a lot of surf boards around.

Even though I will never lose the love that we had together nor will I ever feel that sort of love, I still managed to get on with life and marry and have children. I love my husband very much but it's a different kind of love. It's more of a partnership.

I hope this helps you in some way.

Good luck.