I'm holding myself accountable Sleeps...

Here is the last e-mail I sent to admin guy...

(Admin guy),

I'm going to stop harassing you now and I'm going to stop making threats of
suicide and self harm both to you and on the site.

To hold myself accountable I'm going to give you my address. Now I risk
being arrested by the police if I continue to harass you or make threats.
You can give this information to all the deputies as well. I need to hold
myself accountable for my actions. I do not want to be arrested by the
police.

(full name)
(full address)

Phone number:
Ontario Provincial Police:
Ottawa Police Department:

My worse fear is to be arrested by the police. Now I *must* stop harassing
you and making threats or risk jail time.

I have to stop my behaviours now. I'm forcing myself to stop.