(((((soaringsparrow)))))--you've touched me deeply.

It took me a good 35 years to finally tell everyone in my life:
I am me. Only I know how I feel; and you will stop telling me how I should feel.

A good portion of your anger is probably, like mine, the fact that others are telling you what you are supposed to feel, how you are supposed to act--in short negating who you, as a unique,and special person; truly are.

You got rights!!! You sound intelligent, you sound as if you know when you are "undone/overwhelmed"; and you can learn to conserve that energy for constructive thoughts.

As others here have sagely put it; learn to channel your anger: you are probably a very creative, and sensitive individual.

My thoughts are with you---Courage!---Be well, theo