Hi Troy,
It is good to see you posting and letting out your feelings. Thats good for you to do, better than holding them in.

It isn't you, nothing to do with you Troy. So many people die all around the world every day. We are bound to know them, not our fault we don't carry curses. I went to a funeral last week and this woman was fairly young too, it was very sad as she touched so many lives and was a very good person.

You know perhaps yes it is sad that this young woman died, but she probably didn't know it was coming and didn't suffer like so many others that suffer for a long time with some sort of disease or illness.

I think her new husband is really having a hard time too. He may feel some guilt as well and he will never forget this experience as long as he lives. It will take him a while before he gets close to someone else and allow himself to fall in love or care again, think of him. So in thinking of him, you must realize that he too is not alone.

But it is a part of life Troy, and we do have to accept that yes, we lose others in life and that is why we also must learn to enjoy the life we are given and yes reach out to others. The others that may feel lonely but don't because we reached out. There are good things in life too. It is not about knowing someone who has gone, it is how we touched them or they touched us while they were here, for whatever time that was. The fact that you care means that you have a lot to offer, even though you may not realize that now. Caring about the loss of others means that we can also care about the others that are lost in other ways and need in other ways.

Survival is not a curse, it gives us another chance to meet others, help others in ways that you do not even realize yet. You are still young and when you do recover, you can help others do the same, others that walk in pain as you will know how they feel and how they need to not be all alone.

Life is a gift Troy each person can be a gift. Even the others that come here and support each other, give gifts of hope and the knowing that we are not alone.

The beginning of healing is the moment we ask for help.
The path to healing is learning to accept help
The strength starts to come when we also offer help.

Open Eyes