Thank you ((EVERYONE)) for your support. I keep telling myself I need to try to focus on the positive more. And do the work in therapy even if it hurts and even if I question it. I just know I want to find that inner peace and happiness. I don't want to waste my life with being depressed and worried, thinking about death or abandoning my kids the way I have been abandoned. It is hard work, and I really believe in changing my whole lifestyle. From what I eat and drink, to sleeping habits, do meditation/yoga, avoid all kind of stress and finding a meaningful job of some kind. And I am not sure it means a "traditional job"? Maybe I need a spiritual awakaning? Maybe I should go further into new age? Who knows what is right or wrong? Some seem to have find their ways to happiness and I know they didn't have an easy road. We're all the same, but different. Right now I'm ok, just extremely tired. Coping with just this day.
/hazeleyes