OMG thank you so much. I was really worried this letter would seem too demanding, like I was pointing a finger at her.

Yes I have only been in therapy since March.

My session next is on Friday @4:30 It's only Tuesday!!!!!!

I have never emailed her before with issues, I am not sure she is ok with it. Although she gets disappointed with me if I tell her about Overwhelming emotions and did not call her. She has given me emergency appointments, but I am so afraid of her abandoning me that I can't bring myself to call.

And as much as I am arguing with myself about this I do believe giving it to her in person will be the best thing I can do. I am going to pull myself together and just do it! That's what I keep telling myself. I have to trust that she has helped me through everything else, she can help with this even if I have to go to a new T. Damn that hurts, but it's time for change.

Sometimes these thoughts are really hard to believe, but I keep saying them!!!

Thank You Rainbow8 for taking the time to read this your input means a great deal to me.