((((((((((((Rhapsody))))))))))))))))
i wish i knew the words to make you feel better right now. i know youre having a rough day. i can relate. and that feeling youre describing, i know. i care so much for the person in my life, cant imagine what i would do without him, but the moment we're together i begin to fall apart. i want to give him what he wants but doing so tears me apart and leaves me just an empty shell, tired and sad and lonely and hurting. some of the anger is in knowing that i cant seem to fix this, and some is directed at him for not understanding. i know that hes everything to me but the moment were together i cant separate what i've been through from who i am now, and so its tearing us apart.
i hope you find a way to reconcile all these mixed feelings, to be happy when youre with the one you love, and not pained and angry.
sending hugs your way.