Back again,

I was thinking more, I love puzzles, or my brain does or something in my genetics does. LOL

I have a possible idea about that result that is confusing you. I think that it is picking up the DID. Now I wouldnt worry about that or look at it as a brain damage thing, please don't go there. And I have given some thought to the DID disorder and also how it connects to PTSD and it may even connect to other disorders in a way. I am sorry but I am interrupting a thread on discussing the need to be alone, which can be a form of DID but not really diagnosed as such. It could be just in a spectrum of that.

I also noticed that I do have a type of interruption that I noticed more at PC. I have a tendency to leave out words. Well, growing up, I was constantly interrupted by my father every time I spoke. He did mean well and his intention was to encourage my word usage and speak better english but it caused more harm than good as he just kept interrupting my thought word process while growing up. It did take me a long time to get over that, but I did.

The other thing I noticed is that I do live with two dislexics and I am a constant dictionary and spelling corrector. Well, I see that too when I write, I somehow picked some of that up.

But, I wanted you to see that a brain can pick up some bad habits that we may not be aware of. But I also wanted you to think about when someone studders. Often, this can just somehow develope as an interrupted speach pattern, yet we can resolve it to a normal speach pattern with time and guidance. When someone has this problem they do it more under stress. And they can even revert back to it under stress.
So, it is always there on some level. But it can be changed, our brains can be retrained.

I am a strong believer in the ability of the brain to learn to overcome many things. But I think that it is necessary to become aware of how it developed and get guidance in how to correct it on a conscious level.
I think cognitive therapy can go along way someday in different areas.

This is why I also think that you should keep a journal for yourself as you study psychology. I also think that it is important for you to track all your moods and reactions to whatever you learn. Try to think of it this way, you are on that yellow brick road in The Wizard of Oz and there will be things that you come across that may seem scary, take for example the lion. The lion popped out and others were frightened and then they learned that the lion was not as scary as they thought. Given your PTSD you have to think about that and that will help you keep in check.

Sometimes it is actually those that have it that can better describe how it feels and what needs to come next. But you have to keep yourself in check and may need a therapist to help. I do not believe that people lack in intelligence with different disorders. And in fact, that is why they often struggle. I also think that it is also how they can overcome if they get the right guidance. Just because we have some kind of inablility, it doesn't always mean that we cannot overcome it.

Open Eyes