Your welcome sidestepper,

As you can see, even from the beginning of this thread, that alot goes on here. Sometimes there is a lot of anger, even me, I do express it.

And there is fear, anxiety, sorrow, we even blame ourselves alot. I looked at my own long post here and I remember when I wrote it. I had a really bad week and when that happens many of us remember why. And that why can stretch back pretty far in our lives.

When we feel angry or all the other things, that is PTSD. And as you can see, it does take time and there is a lot to it. Just as we have learned these behaviors, so do we have to unlearn them. We have to reach back and not just see the abuse or trauma but why. That why is so important.
I talk about know thy enemy. Well, that is really important and that enemy has something wrong about them and even they don't see it or they hide it very well. We were just growing up, how did we know right from wrong? Yet we blame ourselves for it, and we take a long time to learn and accept that it really isn't our fault. And somehow, well we have to accept it and morn it and just put it in our memory and thats hard too.

But then we have to realize that others that around us aren't perfect either and so we have to learn that when we sense that or feel it by dealing with an angry mean boss that he may have that behavior for a reason in his past too.

Everyone has a different curtain that respresents their past and they do stand in front of it. Often they don't want to talk about it as they feel that others will not understand it.

The important thing in recovering from PTSD is to know that whatever happened it did effect the victim. We get angry at something that we really shouldn't get angry at, but there is a reason for it. Maybe we are afraid to be the person we really are, well we have to learn that too.
We do it with help from others and we do it one day at a time. And when we get upset with another person, we have to remember why we really get up set and what it means to us. If we have children, then we have to make changes, maybe we too did not do it perfect. But we can change that too one day at a time.

But all the repair started when we admitted we had a problem and began to ask for help.

Open Eyes