I find myself questioning myself and others around me. I feel as if I cant trust anyone, and everyone is talking about me behind my back and laughing at me. I am so insecure and I just don't know what to do because whenever something happens I do the same thing. I say to myself, what if they are saying this, what if they are telling others about it, what if they just said everything is ok but really they are laughing at me, ect. I try to shut it all out but I can't. I feel like I am ugly, even though others tell me otherwise. I genuiely feel ugly, and no words can change that. I feel alone just kinda pushing my way through life at 18