dont know if i'm ranting or venting and sorry if this complaint, or post, seems never ending, but the last 15 hours of my life have just been. . . horrible. and i'm trying to keep it all together and i get this phone call about how i need to pull myself together and get out of the situation i'm in, that i need to deal with my intimacy issues or i'll never be happy, and maybe first i should try to fix all the other aspects of my life that are wrong and then i'll be more able to confront this one issue and that one issue and blah blah blah. and i politley said thank you very much dr. phil. anything else? dont you just love when everythings falling apart around you and the best someone can do is tell you to get the *&^% over it? ok at this point i probably am ranting but how about just being there. do people even do that anymore? accept all your faults and pain and take you in their arms and hold you and say hey i love you and i want you to be okay and i'll work with you through this and we'll fix it together and if we cant i'll love you anyway? is that too much to ask for? apparently so. apparently i have to transform like a gosh darn catterpiller into this great and beautiful butterfly before i'm worthy. i feel like my caterpiller self has just been squished. i know that i can handle this person i am now, with all the faults and the pain, i can continue to just get through the day. sincerely sorry for the rant/vent/endless complaint. its been an endless day.