I was able to rise up out of depression for four days 2 weeks ago, then I fell back in. I really thought I was getting better. This is what happens. I keep relapsing and stay relapsed most of the time. Right now I am not being proactive, and I know I am neglecting my own interests. I've become apathetic.

Tara, thanks for understanding how low I feel. Thank you for your encouragement. If only I could believe in myself . . . like I used to, a long time ago.