I think you hit the nail on the head when you said you've always felt ten years older than what you are...did you ever get a chance to be a kid? Who is supporting you emotionally right now?

I think I did, but I kinda had to repress it. I had no friends, and my mom was always either working or sleeping to support us. My mom stopped babying me the minute I turned 9, and even before then I was treated like I was older. My dad has always talked to me like I was an adult, even when I was an infant!In fourth grade, I knew more about palentology and astronomy than the teacher. Since I've always got high grades in school, everyone expects me to act like one. You would not believe how many people have called me a "unusually mature" young lady.

People get surprised when they realize I still like EVERYTHING I liked as a child. I still like pretending I'm a warrior (I never did the princess thing) and I still watch (and enjoy) all the cartoons my brother now watches that I enjoyed when younger. To be honest, I got him started on the Powerpuff Girls and Transformers just so I could watch it again. Hell I still play my GameBoy Color and all my Pokemon games.

And yet, I feel like I'm old. I always have, and I guess I alway will, even if my surpressed inner child is always kicking and screaming in the back of my head. My Grandma and her sister are probably the only people who will always treat me like a baby, and quite honestly I love it. My stepdad is the ONLY one who sorta acts like I'm my own age, and even he knows I'm "too mature."

One one hand, I want to be an adult, on the other, I want to be a kid. Why can't I just be a normal teenager? It's weird being a "mature" adult and a spoiled brat at the same time.

My emotional support would be my lovely friend Jimothy, aka "The Ghost". He lives in my closet and keeps me company. Jimothy says hi to you folks, and that I'm wasting my time on here and should be doing my Algebra homework. He also wants me to say that I know he's not real, but I honestly don't care because I'm desperate for attention and at least one person that will baby me or be my teenage friend depending on my mood.