sj......I have heard about this guru/avatar...spiritual man, and his wife..... Many people go to India to them, to find happiness and peace. I'm not sure what to believe but doing some research. I don't seem to fit into the "regular" society. It is too stressful and shallow for me check out this site: http://www.livinginjoy.com/

Altho, I don't know what to believe anymore. I'm afraid I'll never find the right answers and it scares me to death. Maybe it's my genes or my bad nerves I don't know. ........... sorry but I'm so tired. Going to bed. Thank you for listening to me. Venting.... But I can't live like this. I just don't know how to get out of this burn out, depression..... there's too much stress and I can't seem to figure it out. Don't want to be messing with more meds either, I'm taking zoloft and for now it seems useless since my mind is the same mess as when I first got on them. blablabla....geesh I need sleep!