Hey guys, I found this site via Google.

Here's my deal:

I'm 22 am in college and have not been doing well at school at all. For anonymity's sake I won't say where I go to school just that it's an elite school and therefore very stressful and intensive. Since I've been here I developed a general apathy for everything but drinking and essentially being a bum. On the surface anyone that knows me probably thinks that I have everything I could want: high IQ, beautiful girlfriend, wealthy, supportive family etc. However, for my 3 years of college I've skipped more than 50% of my classes, done poorly in many of them and have failed to get involved in anything outside of the classroom. I've had the opportunity to run our finance club and another business society but failed to do the requisite work to take over. Likewise, I've put on a lot of weight and feel as if I have no discipline. Hell, I have a ton of reading for class tomorrow (classes that should interest me) but I couldn't get through the first page of the text. I have been prescribed medicine for ADHD but it rarely helps me read past the first couple pages. Likewise, when I start a diet I'll generally stop within a couple days. It just seems like I've lost a lot of confidence and become afraid of the world. I rarely take any sort of chance anymore and when coupled with ADHD and generally feeling down, things seem really lousy. I for the life of me can not figure out what is wrong. I really don't think I'm depressed; I think it's more of frustration in a bad situation. I've spoken with therapists and doctors but still can't pinpoint why I don't take chances, am apathetic and struggle to do any work. Any advice or suggestions will be greatly appreciated.