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Originally Posted by greensky602
I've done a lot of bad in my lives. I don't think forgiveness is immediate, and I keep waiting, and in the mean time try to be a better person with a good heart and good deeds, however, I have resentment in my heart. Where ever I go, I carry with me this resentment, guilt, and insecurity, and I feel so bad. I don't know when forgiveness will be truly granted to me, or if it is even possible to forgive such deeds and the dark heart I carried in those lives. I'm inherently very selfish I think, or maybe I have been molded by environmental and circumstantial situations. I am dark. I keep trying, but because my heart is impure, I feel superficial. I feel my deeds have been so horrendous that no matter what I do I get no where, not forgiven and still the same. I feel bad. I want to be different.
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Keep praying Greensky602 and God will forgive you. But you must forgive yourself as well. This is a lesson that has been hard for me to accept but what grace you will receive when you begin to forgive yourself.
There is only one sin that is unforgivable: blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. Everything else under the sun is forgivable. Have faith that God hears your prayers, have faith that God is good and faithful, and accept the forgiveness when it is given by God. Then be sure to forgive yourself and put it all behind you.
I hope this helps. I will keep you in my prayers.
