sorry I am on cell phone and I ran out of characters.

I honestly think that it is depression.... he has told me a couple times that he thinks he may be depressed, but then he will say everything is fine.

How long will I have to do this.... I want him to be active in our relationship again....

AND I AM WORKING SO HARD TO KEEP QUIET, BECAUSE IT JUST MAKES THINGS WORSE WHEN I TRY TO BE HELPFUL...

Why can't he give a little?

...start therapy on his own?

...start couples therapy with me?

He says he just has no interest anymore in anything he used to find interest in... it is killing me to be the only one trying to grow and change and conpromise.

I am not willing to give up without a fight, but I am losing hope for the future... 22 years we have been together.

I NEED HIM TO GIVE ME SOMETHING.... IS THAT SO WRONG?

But I have told him all these things many times and in many ways and each time I think maybe this time will be the start.... and each time I come away hurt, disappointed and with him just a little more closed to me.

Why does it have to be so hard. He was never one to be really open about what he was feeling, but he used to try...

and he has so much that must be going on in him regarding his childhood, but again he used to try to explain, now NOTHING...

HE IS A CLOSED BOOK TO ME...

I know I can't make him do anything, and I can't make him want to do anything, but how can we continue like this?h