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iamspecial · May 18, 2011, 04:57 PM

Im not having a good day...i had my appointment today with my T and has a surprise (not a good one) there was someone with her i didnt know what to do with myself and didnt really want to talk i did talk tho and the other person joined in (kept asking me questions )....i couldnt look at them for feeling really bad It wasnt a group session.....the other person works with my T (they are colleagues) nope...nope it deffo wasnt a group session....i dont do group sessions my T said that b/c i have been feeling the way i have (for a long time now and i havent improved) she wanted this other person to JOIN us with our chats so that if she isnt available i still have someone that could help (been feeling really bad and wanting to die) not good i know but still i didnt like it....i kept picking my nail varnish off instead of looking at them b/c i just couldnt look at them (my T knows about this website) and i told her i post poems on here so now this other person wants to read them my T never asks to read them ever till now i didnt know what to say to her b/c i didnt know this other person but she acted like she knew me and i couldnt...i just panicked and didnt know what to do..its really got to me now....cant believe she pulled this on me I wish she told me 2 weeks ago that she wanted someone in with us next time we met then i could have prepared myself for it or i would have said no thanks and not gone to see her...i feel soooo stupid now and im soooo upset with her and angry (i dont normally feel angry but upset....i always am) UGH!!!!