Thanks, I'll read through that a bit later!
I was at my grandparents today and my grandmother said to me that my grandfather told her last night he's decided to stop making fun of me all the time. This is SUCH a relief for me because while my family have a very blunt dry humour, and we do make fun of each other and pretend to fight with each other, sometimes I just want to be left alone. My grandfather pays me out all the time, but he also says things with the intention of really pushing my buttons. he can make me feel really childish, and although I'm not in my 30s and married with kids, and I am only 23, I do live on my own, pay my own rent, bills, buy my own food, and at some point will need to be treated like an adult. But I can't be treated like a child and then be expected to act like an adult, and then treated like a child when I refer to myself AS an adult. So for him to say he will no longer make fun of me so much, if he holds his word, will be a huge weight off for me. And it also goes to show that they have acknowledged that I am making the effort to help myself, and in turn make things easier for others.
Having said that, one thing that really plagues me is guilt, when I think someone feels bad or embarrassed it gets me so down, so the thought that perhaps my grandfather might be embarrassed, that he might realise that he's upset me when he was joking and feels embarrassed about it, that makes me feel guilty.
Of course that is something I am going to have to work on.
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