Jadedmoonbeam: Thank you for your comment....i still am really upset with this and so tempted to SI but i cant i need to be strong and not do it...i know that but im just soooooo upset i just dont know what to do with myself 
Leo: Thank you hun...sorry i keep missing you! i know its been 2 days now and im sorry but this has really thrown me of track (shes ment to help me not make me worse!) i know but she has no idea what shes done thowing that other person at me without warning me i cant tell her....i will have to write it down and send it her.
tara: Thank you for your comment....im going to have to email or send her a letter..i cant talk to her...im soo upset..its unreal and i feel even worse now and....i just cant really say much more...i think i have said it all already....each one sounds the same at what i am going to say. she never even asked me if it was ok....she gave me no warning or hit that this was going to happen why now..
Flooded: Thank you for your comment.....at least i know what im feeling is normal and not just me being silly or stupid by all this i just didnt see this at all.
Jaybird: the person who was in the room with me and my T knew what med im taking and i never told her that i was on med!! she named my med to me saying they are not going to help me at all.....what do i say to that apart from well der i already know that but talking to my doc is like talking to a brick wall....give it time...not been on them long enough...blah blah blah im just sick of listening to the same things of my doc so i give up telling her anything and now my T has done this to me i just really dont know what to do anymore....i want to give up..i have nothing here anyway.
SoupDragon: i guess she prob is has all i want to do is end my life but im still here fighting and kicking......thanks to some poeple on here that is....she thinks i might end up being a danger to myself...i think...i do SI when i get like this but so for so good i havent....i have distracted myself instead but i feel sooo low...i cant get up...im drowning and no one can rescue me from this (not even me) i would have loved more notice so i could be perpared but i was....i will have to write it down and give it her...i cant talk to her....not goning to go back and see her now...she cant be trusted and that other person might be there again
Thank you all for the comments and knowing my feelings are normal in this kind of thing..the olny thing is now i dont know what to do with myself theres only one thing that i want to be but mustnt do it no matter what UGH im sooooooo......idk anymore
sorry for ranting and being stupid with all this.
 to all
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