Hi Dahlia. I'm really sorry you're stressing over this. I can definitely relate. Is it the thought of the crowds that you're feeling anxious about?

I'm wondering if you're in therapy at all? This would be a really good thing to work on with a therapist or counselor. You could learn some coping techniques and maybe try some gradual exposure therapy (working with a therapist on exercises that slowly expose you to the situations you're afraid of.)

Wishing you all the very best!