Someone suggested PTSD a few months ago when I first joined this site as well.. I don't know. With therapists I usually.. hold back a little until I trust them but by then they already have their diagnosis and stick to it.

Part of me is holding back on that diagnosis.. because I don't consider my events as traumatic as someone else who does have it went through. I did go through a lot of physical, mental and emotional abuse as a child, but I grew up and out of it fine (except for a bit/ton of separation anxiety) until I met certain people on the internet who've for years leaked through my defenses and poisoned my brain through my monitor. I let them do it, and as far as I'm concerned it was an emotional and mental struggle for me.. especially in the last few months but.. I feel sometimes it's one of those "suck it up your situation isn't that bad as others" times because it was through the internet and not face to face.. and it wasn't life threatening, it was just something I let happen because I didn't know how to turn the computer off.

I don't wanna be one of those people who jumps in with a serious diagnosis even though the events that one claims lead to that don't add up properly.. Now.. unless the "friends" triggered PTSD to suddenly come out that related more to my past.. (if that's possible) I could see me having it... or maybe I'm too afraid of something more serious than a little depression and a little anxiety. I have absolutely no idea.