I'm not sure if anger is the best solution, I want things to be civil for the kids sake, but I don't think he's capable. Now the tables are turned, he's begging again to remain in this relationship but I'm pretty sure there's to much damage. To much has been said and done to each other. I'm not innocent neither, I've said my share of hurtful things, but his is much more. He tells me everyone hates me and tries to convince me that I am a bad/wrong person. He's attempting to break me but I think he forgets where I've came from and what I've endured in life and he can't break me... I've seen much worse then this and still made it out strong. I need to start my life over for myself and my kids and focus solely on that and nobody else. It's just the thought of doing this completely alone that scares me since I have no family..around here at least. Accept a sociopath junkie mother who'd drag me down before helping me. So, for the first time in my life I need to go beyond my pitiful fears and care for myself and these kids. I can do better then my Mom did, I just fear I'll turn out as angry as she did for being a single mother and end up being a partial mom spending most of my time at the bars looking for love... or whatever. I guess everyone has a fear of turning out like their parents...idk. I just got to much trying to hold me back, so I got to let it all go I suppose, really it's all unimportant it this situation.