Even if we have no particular religous affiliation or guideline to follow, we must at the very least accept the ability to provide not only peace to ourselves but to provide and share it with others.

The fact that you have recognized that you feel remorse or guilt for things that you may have done in your past is a good sign that you are very capable of being and moving forward and being a better, kinder person.

It is those who remain angry and without any remorse that will never find true happiness or even self redemption as they do not have any of it to begin with.

I think that what you do have in your post is the fact that you have a spark and that what you need to do is allow that spark to ignite into a fire that will give you the power to live out the rest of your life being a better person.

It is not the materialistic things that we gain in life that we can count on to explain ourself worth. It is that will to allow the spark to ignite and burn for the rest of our lives. If we can allow that to happen and gain peace within that, we can reach out to others and help them do the same.

If we are in a place of clutter, even within humanity. Well, if we just pick one spot, starting with ourselves and move around in a direction and touch others than it is a way to clear at least one area of clutter.

The people who live rich lives are those that find a way to do this. They do it with whatever fire they achieve and find so much warmth from it.
Those who put out the fire of others never gain and only continuously push away any spark they have within themselves.

We cannot expect to change humanity as a hole by ourselves, whether we choose to record it, observe it, explain it, get angry with it, and separate from it, and even feel ashamed by it. No, that never works.
We can only find happiness in reaching out to the best of our abilities,
not hide in distaste but take pleasure in making a donation where ever we can find one small area of clutter that we can try to improve.

Within all the history of humanity, the human primate, it is those that have chosen to work on small areas of clutter that have made the most progress within mankind. If only we could all just do that, well than, we wouldn't be on our knees, we would be enjoying the fruits of what we have accomplished in a small way leading to a much bigger way, within humanity itself.

Open Eyes