LittleForgetMeKnot,
All the things that you are descibing are symptoms of it. You cant just say I used to have it or even think that you were not abused enough to have it. Much of it comes from childhood abuse but can come from all kinds of abuse.

I really didn't realize that my own behaviors were because I did have it and like you, I thought that I just got through it. I doesn't work like that. However I didn't realize that this diagnosis even existed. And it is still faily new in recognition.

The truth is LFMN, it does not just go away by itself. Allowing yourself to accept abuse from whoever dishes it out is the PTSD talking. But if you take the time to address it with a good therapist than you will get the help you need to STOP ALL THESE ONGOING SYMPTOMS, because it will become evident to you. Allowing it to continue will not be good for you as it will only add to it. And weather you like it or not, it will eventually come out at a time when you would be better off not having it come out. Example in marriage with children and not feeling you can function and not understanding why and how much is effects not only you but all the others around you. No, stop it now, use this time to learn how to repair yourself now instead of allowing further damage. The depression that you feel is also a part of it and it may get worse if you don't address the real reason and work your way thru it.

I wish I had known about it at your age, it would have made my life easier as I would have learned why I would get so angry and even blow up at times. I would find out why I was feeling anxiety for what seemed like no reason at all. It is quite possible that your other family members have it too. That can lead to disfunctional family issues, such at too many desks. My brother had it too and he always chose to over eat. There is not escaping from it, the only way to handle it is to reconize it and learn how to stop it from slowly taking over your life. It can be worked thru and you can be a better stronger more relaxed person.

Open Eyes