Hiya,

i don't really know what to say, but I wanted you to know that I read your post and it made sense to me. You have a bunch of supportive people on this site now. I was distanced from my own father when I was young and only reconnected with him when I was 21. I knew at the time I wasn't ready to reconnect but I did anyway at the urging of my brother. The time wasn't right and we became distanced again. Only now, 9 years later am I in somewhat regular contact with him. So, I can only say that I knew it was a mistake before i did it. I don't know what it's like for it to feel like the right time. Wishing you all the best,

Love and hugs,
tara