Thank you both so much for your responses. I am taking some time to seriously consider counseling and see if our relationship can be salvaged, and at the same time whether I can endure any more pain prior and during the counseling. This past weekend, we didn't speak to each other once even though he was aware of the fact that I was sick. It is unthoughful gestures such as these that he has lately consistently displayed which makes me question whether any further effort is worth it. The constant rollcoaster of him calling crying that he wants to change and then becoming a jerk 3 days later is really killing me. I will keep you both posted though and again thank you so much!