does anybody know an answer or anything that can help?

by the way, i have seen improvement on my hidden feelings, my little sister was having a party (first time in a few years) but we all went out and when we later should go back she stayed behind, it became later and later. the next time we rang her she was at the gate (she lives at the third floor so nobody could confirm it but everyone was leaving), she wasn`t there, at this time i was freaking out (didn´t show it). an hour later i get the news that she is at home, well out and trowing the trash, i rushed over there and saw for myself that she was ok, helped her to the bed and left.

at the time i was a wreck, screemed all i could and hit a wall to get it out of my system, it hurt like hell but i learned that my feelings arent goone, they are just very numb or resurface when i find something i think is serious enough

another question, what can i do to connect with my feelings again?