I am down. Really down. I don't care about life anymore. I just don't care about my job or anything. I have been drinking and misusing meds. I know - stupid. But I have to find relief somewhere or I won't be able to contain myself. I don't know what happened, probably too much stress from work. A switch just flipped and I am back down here again. I need help, I know. I am seeing pdoc on Mon and T on Tues. But I really think I need a little more support, maybe twice a week or something. Idk. This just plain sucks.