My life literally feels like Im teetering on the precipice atop a ginormous mountain of *****. Either direction I fall, it will be a long dirty roll to the bottom.

My husband and I were arguing again today about my failures as a mother and wife. I suggested instead of me being the stay at home parent that we either both work and share all the responsibilities equally or that he be the one to stay at home with the kids and I get a full time job. This suggestion made him furious. The argument got so heated, I couldn't help it and broke down crying. He even pulled the religion card and tried making me feel like less of a Christian for wanting to work outside of the home!

I told him I sometimes think about running away and leaving him and the kids. I was just being honest. I feel like they would be better off without the utter chaos I bring into the house. My hope was that he would see how desperately I need... something else, something different... something more. I for sure thought his reaction would have been sympathetic and that he would realize and respect the significance of my difficulties. In stead, he stood up and while looking down at me he said "if you even try it, I will have you committed"! I was so shocked. I couldn't even respond. That was about two hours ago and since then he has been completely ignoring me. He's acting like Im not even in the room!

So, what if I do leave, could he have me committed to a psychiatric hospital? On what grounds can another person do that to someone?

Help, please... Advice? Suggestions? Hugs?

Thanks in advance.

Soul broken,
Blue