I believe it started in October 2009 when my (then)husband turned 21 and his drinking became excessive. As a Christian, I do not condone alcohol use and it really hurt me to see him drinking so much and always being drunk. His "friend" came over a lot in those days and comforted me and kept my husband from messing himself up. This "friend" behaved inappropriately toward me and I kept allowing him to go farther and a couple weeks later he came over and had sex with me.
Because of how horrible this all made me feel, the details are quite foggy but I've always struggled with whether this was consensual sex or whether it was similar to rape. I mean, I let him but I never wanted to do it.
Someone else I confided in told me this was called emotional rape.

Please help me figure it out.