SJ,

I am sorry t hear for your loss. I to lost my grandmother recently and I understand how you feel. At first it's complete oblivian....almost as if it's not real.

My Grandmother passed away after a 8 month battle with liver and pancreatic cancer. I think what helped me accept what happened the most was knowing that she is no longer experiencing the pain.

Don't beat yourself up. I did for awhile after her death. I felt I should have done more, or said more. Don't have regrets......just keep those good memories with you, that way she remains with you.

Desirae