I think you should go for YOU! You need some support right now and a chance to get back on your feet. I think it would be harder for your husband if you didn't get the help you really need. And the suicidal feelings need to be addressed. The hospital can provide support, adjust meds (if you're on any), give you a brief respite from the demands of life, and give you some good coping skills. You will receive the most benefit if you do this for yourself, rather than because you feel like a burden.