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Originally Posted by LittleForgetMeNot
I understand I should worry more about myself, but it's so difficult now. I feel like I must cater to everyone else or I will be looked down upon, hated, and attacked. These feelings are from recent events that lasted quite a few years.. Everyone says you grow from your experiences.. I think I grew but the wound is still bleeding.
But, I'll try to talk to my worker about it the next time I see her.. If I can muster up the courage at least.
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I'll reply to your original quote as well but I wanted to reply to this first. Worrying more about other people's than your own doesn't tend to make me think that you're wrong for doing so, it makes me think you're a good person for it. I am very similar, for instance I am pretty broke right now just starting out in the world and I have given tons of MY own hard-earned money to other people who are deserving. I used to also tend to care more about other people than myself, which I have grown out of some but as you can see by me giving my money away (since I feel others are more needy, I do have a roof over my head) I am not completely grown out of it. But again, don't put yourself down for that because it is good to have compassion.
Your Therapist doesn't seem to be doing her job real well. Like others have said, which is a true fact, Therapists are supposed to listen to YOUR feelings and then decide what they think is going on and try to give you advice on how to deal with it, not the other way around. I know you don't really hate her but I understand how it would be irritating to have to go through all of that and then have a session go that particular way. It's understandable. Also, I have severe anxiety and I know first-hand that it's not an easy thing to cope with especially when you start panicking over it (such as being in big crowds like you were). You have a lot on your plate for your age and having to do all that just to see your therapist who gave you a a bad session must have been difficult.
I think it is good to talk to your social worker about it, not sure if you have yet or not, but that would probably help. I wouldn't let it go this time because she needs to know that what she is doing is making things worse on you not better, and she should be trained to know how to act in that situation and change her ways and thinking process.
Anyways, hope it gets better for you.