Threee years ago my husband (now ex) told me he didn't love me or fancy me and did not want to continue the relationship - so I divorced him

He moved out for 9 months into a caravan, but when it got cold in the winter he moved back in again. I have been patiently waiting for him to leave since then.

It is a difficult situation, although we do not argue in front of the kids, I spend most of my time feeling realy stressed and trying to control my emotions.

I went out last night with a friend and she told me he had asked one of the other mums at our kids school out for a drink. I initally felt really hurt, however told myself that I can't dictate who he sees and our relationship is over. However I can't get over the fact that he is still in my house, using my washing machne, toothpaste, TV etc... and can think it is OK to try to start a relationship with someone who I see everyday at the school.

I feel really stupid, I do still care about his feelings, yet he obviously doesn't give a damn about mine. Why do I keep kidding myself that he does?

Work up today with a new band aid on my arm