Thanks guys,

I should of went out for a walk today but I stayed in bed until after 3pm. I really have no will power. I use to have LOADS of will power before I became ill. Now I have none and its so hard to motivate myself.

Every day I promise myself I will go to the gym and I will be better but it never works.

I pigged out Friday and Saturday watching DVD's..... I go through phases where all I want to do is watch DVD's..... part of fixation between that and my Nintendo Wii lol I can't win.

I promised myself I would lose 4-5 stone at the start of the year as I was wanting to run a wee marathon for Cancer Research which takes place every year in my City..... well guess who will be walking it again. It only takes like an hour to walk it and the atmosphere is amazing. This is in under 4 weeks time. I will be fat and horrible as nothing fits me and I don't have money to go and buy bigger clothes.

I just hate who I am soooo gullible towards food.

I think I am gonna not eat anything bar 1 meal a day and that will help..... I have done this before and it has worked obviously along with exercise.

All I wanna do now is pig out as I am now angry at myself but instead I am away to clean and keep my hands busy!!!