I am special - it is so hard to build trust with people, why would your T not know that they couldn't just spring another person in on you? I know it would have rattled me, and I can't say if I would have just let it go on or not, but I shut down in front of people very easily and I probably would have given into the panic and told them that the session was off for that day. And I would be really uncomfortable with my T reading my postings here. T's are not friends, no matter how much we like them or how well we click or they know us, and although for some maybe them reading the postings here would provide an extra insite, I wouldn't like it. I would maybe censor some of my thoughts if I thought my T would be reading them. I wouldn't want to print out the poems either, it seems so personal. I don't know, it could be helpful, but no more then just you summarizing them. I would be angry and embarressed if the situation happened to me, and I am glad you came here for support. I hope you have the courage to continue, and if you make your needs known, i.e. telling the therapist how it made you feel and what you expect in this situation in the future, you may save some other client from these feelings.