Lincoln,

It is hard to know what to do, how to do it and when to do it. I was in therapy for years before it "ice melted". It took that long for the awareness, etc., to increase so that I could even do the hard work.

You'll get there and it will be almost like a "lightbulb" being switched on. You'll see more clearly your path and the final goal.

I wish you more than well.

KD