Ok. So t and I have have the key to unlock the door to the emotional selves. WOWOW.

Physical "triggers" we thought would get to these parts. We put on some music. It wasn't 10 minutes(?) and wow.

I wasn't afraid. I trust more than I trust myself. However, it is hard to do. It's emotionally and physically exhausting. Of course, I don't remember.

The cool thing? I'd been going through h#ll on earth for almost two weeks and that was all but gone! There's a calm here that I can't explain, and a "jumping up and down" for more...lol. (Not so sure I agree with that part. )

Anyhow, t and I have been doing some really effective and quite amazing work, I think.

I don't feel like a failure there anymore. I've made the decision so many times to "just let go" and it wouldn't happen. I couldn't get past the intellectual self (frontal cortex) to get to the emotional selves in the "middle brain".

We knew it always went whacky when the emotional parts were triggered...then flooding. We figured out to safely trigger there might work. It did. It was wild, and just the beginning, I think.

The best thing? The massive self put-down from "failing" week after week after week is over. It didn't have anything to do with trust, avoidance, etc.

KD