thanks Just feeling so sad again and jumbled. the most depressing thought is, its never gonna end is it? I really do try and make the best of my lot, but this illness, it takes me over and I struggle to see anything in me other than this illness. It's almost as if I am letting it define me as a person and cower to it's every whim. I know this illness does not define who I am as a person, it's just difficult at times to look outside of the bipolar box. I want to scream and cry right now, I have a build up of fire on my stomache and right now I am all alone. Really, pls, I just want to be free :'(