lyib, I don't want you to think I'm totally unselfish. I'm worried about HER mainly because I need her for ME. I can't separate which is which. I like her so much that I would be devastated if she died (her or I moving away wouldn't be so disastrous but I'd hate that too) because she's a special person. But I don't want anything to happen to her because every session is important to me, and I want to do this work with her. I am getting farther with her than with any other T, so the thought of it ending for whatever reason is painful to contemplate.

dizgirl and nannypat: I'm sorry you've lost your Ts for whatever reason. It's very, very hard.