I havent really know what this label meant up till now. I went to see a doctor the other day (for haemhorrhoids) and i found myself fading off into a daydream state. I was listening for the words or ideas behind the words spoken. You see, i'd gone through a previous experience with a Dr. who breached his boundaries. Now i know that i disassociate.
I am trying to experience my feelings now . i cant cry. I have a therapist who is trying to bring me to feeling again. I felt today, that i was very depressed.. I am trying to make sense of the feelings and concerns about my marriage. I know that I cant trust my husband enough to leave my diary around the house. I am trying to distinguish where he starts and I end I have discussed everything with him up till now. I wont do that anymore. I dont feel that he is my biggest friend anymore and I am suspicious of him. I dont know whether to trust anyone , him included. He is a Psychiarist and this makes my situation worst. Any thoughts on this. What is this about . I am trying to get better and make changes