I am so glad to hear that your mom recognized the right thing to do.
You have no reason to feel shame any longer. istuno, what we learn from our past is something that we will not only remember in the future, but it will teach us how others feel, even in secret. You never know that maybe someday your pain may help another person know that they are not alone. As you grow older you will remember to listen and even know the signs of a quiet pain.

istno, I am sorry that you cried reading my answer. But I want you to know that I answered you because I too know quiet pain. Because I do know it, I do answer you and others like you. I try hard to tell them that, yes you do have rights. I was afraid to stand up sometimes and perhaps I should have. But I have learned that it is me that needs to stand up for myself.

We all learn in life iston, and many times we learn by experiencing pain.
Many people suffer private abuse of some kind. And not all those people stay kind hearted like you. Some of those people actually become bullies.
Some of those bullies that you came across, needed to control someone, they needed to feel important and gain attention, most of them do this because they have no power or attention at home or gain no respect.

Many times people who bully are in pain, their only way to express themselves is by bullying others. People like you, and me, and many others are stronger in a way, because we have all chosen to remain good people, caring people.

Embrace the goodness in your heart and learn from your past. Dont ever be ashamed of yourself for being a good person. It is the good people that make a difference in the lives of others. It is the good person who listens when someone is in pain and asks for help. There are so many good people, but they are very busy, many of them are working in jobs that revolve around helping others in some way.

No, just because you could not fight the bullies doesn't mean you were ever weak. It meant that you were even stronger, did not join into their cruelty. No, maybe you had to hide sometimes or sit alone. But you will always remember what that means and that will make you a compassionate person. Compassionate people are stronger people they gain strength in reaching out instead of pushing others into sadness.

Open Eyes