feeling that it's all just time to say good bye but I just can't. I thought this was over and done with WHY am I holding onto it so much? I keep overcompensating for the loneliness, addicted to attention good or bad. There is a sick feeling inside my stomach when I think about it and it's just not fair I want to feel loved, safe, and wanted again. I don't know how to move past anything, I don't know how to just forget. The only way I was ever capable of forgetting was putting someone else in that place.. but there is no one to put there.