I'm sorry you're going through this, jiakhan. Break-ups are horrible and being dumped is just...ugh...it can feel like the end of the world.

What I think you need to do is NOT focus on finding a man right now. I think what you need to do is work on loving and accepting yourself for who you are because you seem to be suffering from some really low self-esteem. Are you getting help in the form of therapy or medication or something for the depression? If you aren't, I strongly suggest you consider it because it sounds like you're in a dark place at the moment. I think it's imperative you focus on yourself before even thinking about trying to have a relationship. You don't need a man or a relationship to define you or make you a wonderful person. You can do that all on your own. Don't let your self-esteem become wrapped up in what some guy tells you. I know it's hard not to let that happen, but this guy who supposedly dumped you sounds like he did you a favor. Any man who tells you that you can go to hell sounds like a jerk who doesn't deserve your affection.

Do you have some close friends or relatives you could also confide in or vent to? It's going to be a rough few weeks. It always is following a break-up. Time will heal you, though. Just keep yourself busy. Get some exercise, work on coping with your stress and depression, read some good books, hang out with friends, and just keep taking it one day at a time. You say you keep letting this happen to you over and over again. Well, break the cycle and just swear off relationships for a little bit. Use this time to build up a healthy relationship with yourself and then, later, work on a romantic relationship. When you're in a healthy emotional place as an individual, you'll be in a much better position to finding and keeping the love of your life.

Best of luck to you!