when my son was a teenager, he was admitted to a residential 'treatment' facility. He went in a mentally-ill teenager and came out (after 2 years) an abused mentally ill teenager.

I started learning of the abuse after about 4 months but my hands were tied legally although I tried.

All of this is in court now. I have to document each incident of abuse. I kept a diary at the time. It has over 3000 pages. So I have to reread it and relive everything including my son's pain and my helplessness.... abuse a child and you send a sword through the parent's heart. And of course, I have to reference medical documents and court documents.... meaning rereading them to cite specific paragraphs and lines.

I have detailed 60 incidents so far and have only covered 6 of the 24 months.

THE PAIN I AM IN CONTANTLY IS UNBEARABLE. IT IS IN MY HEAD 24-7.

I just keep thinking of the poor kids. How on earth is a child with who has difficulties with daily life supposed to process abuse... and abuse that he cannot get away from?! And each abusive action cuts my soul.

ABUSE IS UGLY, UGLY, UGLY.

star trek: next generation
there was an eposode of star trek many years ago when Deana Troy was in a shuttle that crashed on an uninhabited planet where there was a black puddle-mass. It covered the shuttle and made it dark and depressing.... doom and gloom.... that is abuse.... it is just ugly. I cannot fathom how it can go on.... really I can't

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thank you pc for the opportunity to post this