Yeah i get what you mean and your not being harsh i just really need option's, trust me i've tried to stop contact and everything but we always start talking again. We aren't well i'm not willing for her to cheat i don't want if anything us to start something over cheating she has said that she was going to break it off a few times with her boyfriend but she doesn't know.

I totally agree with what you said about cheating but the drunken part we liked each other way before we got drunk and anything happened. We just knew we liked each other a lot but the drunknes got the better of us. It wouldn't bother me as much if she actually seen her boyfriend but she hardly ever sees him :/

The way i've been feeling lately is just in and out of depression and it's over her but at the same time she's still the only person that can help but she's the one that causes it :/