Hi quiksilver - I can relate to what you are saying. Although I currently have my kids living with me, there is a real chance that this may change soon - it is so hard to contemplate not being with them - I try not to think about it.

But everyday is a struggle to get motivated to do things - I too provide for their physical needs, but I am so tired and it is hard to have the energy to play with them too.

I tried to talk to my mum today about some things that were bothering me, she has never been there for me emotionally and she just literally changed the subject to the weather!

I know it is easy for me to sink, to give up, but I keep telling myself this is temporary - yes it is dragging on a bit now - BUT it will get better in the future - I just need to keep going - to really try and do all those things that we all know are good for us (eating / exercise / sleep etc) - I don't get it right everyday, but I am just taking oneday at a time.

Please don't think you have no-one to talk to - there are many on here who can listen and who care about you and all members of this site.